There are verses we use and see all the time. They are on notebooks, knick-knacks, and t-shirts. One of them is Joshua 1:9. It says, Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.

There is so much truth in this one verse. Seriously. So much truth. But today, God opened my eyes to an important part of the context of that verse. You see, Joshua was on the brink of entering the promised land as the successful leader of the nation of Israel.

And he was afraid. Over and over again God had to tell Joshua to be “strong and courageous”.

I find that comforting. Because as you’ve probably heard me say, I’m scared. Healing is intimidating. It’s frightening. It’s threatened to paralyze me. Recovering from a long-term illness is so much harder than I ever imagined it would be. Harder, more painful, and scarier.

I keep thinking, “But, I’ve longed for this for so long, shouldn’t I be overjoyed with no negative emotions? Healing means my sickness has come to an end! Healing means I’m exiting the tunnel and stepping into the light! Healing should be all good, right? I see all the people around me still in the throes of sickness and not knowing when or if healing will come . . . how dare I struggle with healing?” Here, the promised land–the promised healing–is before me, and I am all but dragging my heels as I enter it. I cling to the entrance of the tunnel, blinded by the sun. I’m afraid.

But Joshua was afraid, too. How comforting! But He obeyed God and stood in the power, authority, and courage God gave him . . . commanded of him. Of us. He does not leave us, He will stand with us, He will go behind and before us. His Word will not depart from our mouths, and His promises come through. We should not be discouraged, for God is with us wherever we go . . . and for Joshua, that “wherever you go” was the promised land. For me right now, it’s navigating healing.

That isn’t to say that the journey won’t be hard, or won’t hurt. I can testify that healing is both painful and hard. Joshua’s entrance into the promised land was accompanied by battle after battle. It wasn’t just moving in and settling down, but purging the land as God has commanded. War, fighting, blood, suffering.

Plus, Joshua was the leader of a nation, not to mention a warrior. It wasn’t easy. And it took a giant amount of courage. But God never left his side. And He won’t leave ours either. The battle may be hard, whatever you are facing, but God is right there fighting with us… for us. (See Exodus 14:14.)

No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their ancestors to give them. “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” -Joshua 1:5-9